08 November 2009

bila boleh terbang. bebaslah!

sudah berabad rasanya belog ini tidak dikemas kini. haish. tidak berkesempatan. student's life. (masih boleh mengaku sebagai student walaupon final year degree hampir tamat) 

assignment banyak. test berderet-deret. dengan quiz. report. masalah rumah tangga. (sudah berumah tangga ke si hani ini??) makanya bila semua sibuk tiada masa untuk mengupdate belog ini. tiada masa untuk membuat revision. tiada masa untuk ber huha huha dengan rakan-rakan. macam sibuk sangat je kan jadi student nih?? 




ahhh. tuh semua dusta. si hani ini gemar siapkan keje last minit. esok nk anta mlm nih baru terhegeh-hegeh nak siapkan. esok nak test malam nih baru sebok bukak buku. baru sebok msg kawan-kawan tanye "eh silah, chapter mane yg masuk ek test esok? nape mcm xpnh belajar jek benda nih??" see?? mane la dia xsibuk?? (abesla si hani kalau mama yang baca). tetapi tidak mengapa. kini dia bebas.



tapi sekarang semua itu sudah tiada lagi. tiada lagi test yang perlu dijawab. assignment yang perlu dihantar. report yang perlu disubmit. quiz 5markah yang perlu dijawab macam test 20m. kerana si hani suraya itu sudah tamat pengajian di dalam kelas. tidak perlu lagi dia menghadiri kelas-kelas pagi. tidak perlu bangun awal dengan muka limau sunquick.

tidak perlu jalan kaki dari pusat komersial sampai unit kesihatan untuk tukar bas di padang kawad dan sampai di bus stop HEP lalu jalan kaki lagi tidak sampai 5minit untuk ke kelas.walaupon si hani suraya ini selalu datang lambat ke kelas. kelas mula pukul8.30. dia sampai 8.45. kelas mula pukul 9.00 dia sampai 9.15. kelas ganti hari rabu boleh kira dengan kaki berapa kali dia datang semenjak bulan puasa. tetapi tidak mengapa. kini dia bebas.


aktiviti malam jika esoknya ada test: keluarkan kertas garis-garis putih. catatkan semua nota yang perlu dan kertas itu akan jadi sumber rujukan ketika test sedang berjalan. (dia meniru???) bukan meniru. kerana si hani suraya ini pemalas mahu menelaah lepas balik kelas, die menelaah masa dalam kelas. semasa membuat test. jangan lupa rakan seperjuangan disebelah. boleh exchange of information mana-mana yang patut. see?? study smart bebeh!! tetapi kini tiada toyol boleh membantu. tidak perlu lagi. kerana dia sudah bebas.


hidup hani suraya kini sudah berubah. dia perlu berubah menjadi dewasa. belajar berdiri atas kaki sendiri. kini betol-betol sendiri. alam pekerjaan sedang menanti. dunia realiti semakin menghampiri. hah. dia blank. sudah terbiasa hidup dalam kepompong sendiri tanpa berfikir tentang masa depan.


yeah! though totally she is not prepared. from all aspects. finacially broke, mentally, physically, emotionally. in short. though she is free but still she is not ready to be set free. she still needs her parents to support her. still needs her friends when she needs them the most. no no no. i dont want to grow up. haha. a bit childish. but no body knows what's outside there. is it good enough for me to live my life as what i am today?? 

certainly nope. i am not satisfied. but i am grateful for being here. with him. with my babes. with my friends. en ili. i am grateful that you are always there though we are far apart for i wish and really hope the distance between you and me will not tear us apart. for whatever reasons that i couldnt think of, i am grateful that you are always beside me though you never help. i am childish, immature and  i am grateful that you can accept for what i am. 

I hate the way you talk to me
And the way you cut your hair
I hate the way you drive my car
I hate it when you stare

I hate your big dumb combat boots
And the way you read my mind

I hate you so much that it makes me sick
It even makes me rhyme

I hate the way you're always right
I hate it when you lie
I hate it when you make me laugh
Even worse when you make me cry

I hate the way you're not around
And the fact that you didn't call
But mostly I hate the way I don't hate you
Not even close, not even a little bit, not even at all.


~10 things i hate about you


and also for geng AC21B (mafia secret code ke nih?) who being there through thick and thin. who with me discover the real meaning of being grown up. who starving together with me when we only have maggi mi dekat dapur. who shares the same pillow bed with me, who share the same shampoo with me, who lend me the pitih when i dont have any, who always there arguing with me, who always stands beside me, who will defend me when all the people talks about me, who lend me a hand when i am in trouble, who always there, never give up on me, who always laugh when i made stupid jokes, who celebrate my birthday never missed, who always loves to hear me sing (blaaah. ini tipu weh.) and all the journey that we shared for the past 5years, i am grateful. for i wish we could live in the same house until all of us getting maried (tp kena hire bibik weh. sumpah geli umah sepah-sepah camnih!) that is why i never want to be free.

A friend is someone we turn to
when our spirits need a lift.
A friend is someone we treasure
for our friendship is a gift.
A friend is someone who fills our lives
with beauty, joy, and grace.
And makes the whole world we live in
a better and happier place
.

- Jean Kyler McManus -



mana saya nak cari experience baru macam nih? berkongsi kebusukan dan kewangian dalam hidup sama-sama. during free time bole tgk cd 4ringgit dekat laptop lepas tu buat marathon movie sampai ngantok tertidor sendiri. bole have fun habeskan dwet ptptn baru dapat bersama-sama naik kereta kancil dari zaman diploma kedah sampai degree. during laziness melanda (most of the time actually) akan order McD atau Dominos atau bila inflasi melanda poket habiskan semua makanan di dapur. maggi, milo, nescafe, pearl kacip fatimah, old town white coffee. u name it!! semua licin. hanya kerana malas mahu menapak turun pergi ke kedai makan yang jauhnya hanya beberapa langkah dari rumah. ufh. i am gonna miss ya'll so much!! i never want to be free. hani suraya dipaksa bebaskan diri. (22tahun. kalo kawen da bole jadi emak tau. that's what my mama always said.)

dia masih blom bersedia. ada sape-sape mahu replace tempat dia? tapi kena janji jangan curi en ili + kawan-kawan dia + family dia. cuma tukar umor sahaja. 
(huh. immature side of hani suraya.)  



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